Looking back, this is one of the first times I shared an example of my social anxiety, although I didn’t recognize it as such. Ag
I went to Best Buy today.
Everything in bold was actually said out loud as I was at the register. Everything in italics was said in my head.
Her: Is this an old movie?
Me: Oh, God. Yes.
Her: Is it a scary movie?
Me: Is “A Clockwork Orange” a scary movie? Like what she means by a “scary movie?” Um, kinda. I like the director.
Her: Do you like scary movies?
Me: No. But I said this was kinda scary and I’m buying it. Ugh. Not necessarily. I like Stanley Kubrick.
Me: Nevermind. Nevermind.
Her: So what’s the best movie you’ve seen?
Me: Really? Wow. Well, she’s trying. And this is a good opportunity to expand her horizons, a chance to get her to think about a great film she’s never seen. Um, I guess…
Her: Like a NEW movie.
Me: Oh, um… Can I still say “All About Eve”? No. Crap!
Her: Like what’s the last really good movie you saw?
Me: Last good new movie? Oh! “Moon” was really excellent. Oh! “Moon” was really excellent. Oh, jeez…
Me: Moon. Abort! It was only here for a little while. Stop talking, you fool! It was an independent film with Sam Rockwe…nevermind.
Her: What film?
Me: OH! “Up!” “Up” was excellent. Made me cry and was very funny too!
Her: "Up?" You mean the cartoon?
Me: Ugh! The Pixar film? The animated feature? Do I go ahead and sound like a pompous ass and correct her? No. …yes…the cartoon.
Me: Oh, good Lord! So what’s the best movie you’ve seen recently?
Her: Um…The Madea movie was really funny.
Me: … Um…
Me: Uh huh.
Me: Well, you have a good day now.
Her: You too.